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What if I really took complete responsibility and accepted that I am the chief architect in creating and holding in place everything that is going on in my life, good, bad or indifferent? What if I truly begin to believe that the state of my consciousness is the most powerful influence to change that? What if I also acknowledged that there are stuff (people, situations, conditions) in my life that fall in categories ranging from ‘oh-I-don’t-really-care-for-that’ going all the way down to ‘I-hate-that’ and ‘that-must-be-squashed-killed-driven-out-banished-from-my-life’? What if I took to heart that I purposely put those things there, so I could evolve on a fast track?

Would my life look different? Feel different? Something to ponder upon, really. I did.

I noticed that Johnny Doolittle with whom I have been really mad for what feels like a century, because he is sooooo negative, downright lazy and will of course never ever change, is now winking at me with the question dancing in the air ‘have you ever been lazy and negative? And have you forgiven yourself for it?’

And that job that I reluctantly drag myself to every Monday morning (gotta pay my bills, you know), the one that suffocates me with the deadlines, timelines, reviews and my monster boss breathing down my neck? Why did I put that there? My inner guide descends from some esoteric realm, stands leaning on the doorpost, cool as a cucumber and says, “Good question, kid. At last you are learning to ask the right ones. Now just wait for the answer.”

The answers are bitter pills to begin with. I never trusted my creative expression. Not for a moment did I let myself believe what I really love doing can and will pay my bills. I let someone else take the risk and the responsibility. I was willing to tag along, toe the line. Everyone needs a job, that’s what people do and so did I and worked hard for others. Become a slave to someone else’s creative organization. And now my spirit is suffocatiing and pleading me to get out. Deep breath.

That I am still here must mean I have yet to prepare myself to take that responsibility. My spirit is standing by, reminding me everyday that’s what I must do…….. that’s what I must do. Meanwhile I am so grateful to the folks I work for that they take the risk, they create a place where I can come and give my hours in exchange of my rent and other bills. One of these days, I have promised myself, I will be working at a place that I enjoy. I am getting ready.

And what about this relationship? What about this partner of mine who was going to make me happy on all counts, support and love me forever? Why do we keep getting into these unpleasant entanglements? Why am I still here? Why do I hang on to him, and he to me? It’s old habit, you say? No?

Old habit, may be, but when did I lose sight of love. I made him such a part of me that now I take him for granted every moment, as I do my hands and feet. My eyes and teeth. When he shovels the snow, paints the basement, replaces the window, fixes the furnace ….. oh of course he is suppoed to do that, isn’t he the guy? But why won’t he also do all this other stuff which really I would like to do but don’t have the guts, the conviction or the wherewithal to go and do by myself? Like learning to dance…….. I’d leave in a heartbeat but for the fact thet he pays half the mortgage and I don’t make that much money.

The truth I am trying to accept here is that I am solely responsible for creating this too. Aaaaargh!!!

And how would I change it if I lose sight of love? Isn’t that the juice? My inner guide is still leaning on doorpost snickering away, “You are getting it, kid, don’t stop now!!”

Hmmm. Through the eyes of love again then, I guess, it is time to see it all through the eyes of love. Nothing and no one can be take for granted any more. Not their job to make me feel better. No one else is responsible. So thank you, and you and you and you. Thank you today for who you are, what you do and what you add to my life.

Thank you also for what feels like you are taking away without equally returning the favor. Thanks for the reminder. That I am still here must only mean I am utterly blind to the compensation, because I have so taken it for granted. Energies must necessarily be in some degree of balance in order to let the situation exist.

Whew!!! The head spins. Awareness is the first step to making changes. I am. I will. It is set in motion. It is my life and I am the creator.

Malabika
Your Energy Guide

Light In Focus
Click here to listen to a short visualization meditation to clear the aura and bring harmony and focus. Enjoy.

Now that is an old cliché. So I had thought for a long time -- an old cliché.

” I want to thank you for helping us see our relationship in a new way. It is an unusual road we have traveled, and a different place we are at…… I appreciate the way you approached us and feel like it was a huge step forward.”

One of the most common feedback I recieve from my clients, as the one quoted above, is that they are able to see the same old things from a whole new perspective. “I never thought of it that way” or “I much prefer seeing it this way” are also common exclamations.

This is the whole point.

Our minds get grooved easily into existing patterns, old molds, handed down beliefs, traditions, programs, collective mind set and very soon go round and round in the same circuit. Unconsciously we keep slipping back into that groove. New books and ideas help change some. But the real courage needed to make significant changes comes only from the inner spirit, the deeper wisdom of the self.

And all I do is scratch the surface to help them get an insight into their inner conflict and viola, they have a whole new perspective. It is such a relief, such a breath of fresh air, like a window to freedom just got opened up.

The perspective from inner spirit is decidedly different from that of the mind. It is quite upside down or downside up if you will. Takes some courage to adopt such a perspective. But when the pain of remaining stuck becomes more than one can bear, we are all able to muster the courage. Such, at least, is my experience.

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Your guide to energy resources,

Malabika

“What is this Inner Being you keep referring to?” my friend asked.

A little ironic coming from a person whose entrepreneurial flair is legendary and as evident in the front line organizations he has initiated and built over the years.  This kind of zest, this intensity of focus, this level of creative endeavor would be elusive to anyone who is not intimately in touch with one’s own Inner Being.

Yet, the question has been asked, so I address it within the limitations of words.

In the vast ocean of consciousness, within which all creation is, which is that individuated part that shows up as YOU? You are a powerful vortex of the energy of consciousness, filtered through belief structures and anchored within this human body. Your mind and your emotions are gifts – tools for your creative purpose. And your Inner Being is that part of you which holds within it the full promise of your human potential just as a seed inherently holds the idea of the tree. And just as the seed matures to fruition in a healthy and conducive environment, so does the Inner Being.

Is this real, or a mere conceptual construct, you may ask? Conceptual no longer, most definitely real. More and more we are beginning to see the evidence of this space in the energy field, at a level of consciousness.

Unfortunately, not many of us can access this very valuable part of ourselves with the same ease and nonchalance as my friend does. Most of us have more of a ‘hit and miss’ relationship with our Inner Being – very tenuous one when we are stressed. So caught up are we in the world of survival and safety on the physical and psychological turfs, where do we have the time to nurture that seed to bear fruit?

Yet, it is this connection that gives meaning to our lives, puts passion in our efforts and beckons us to yet greater vistas. It brings with it excitement and growth. The Inner Being alone knows to savor the very juice life offers. Without it, we are roaming in a dry desert biding time.

If you are wondering how your Inner Being is faring, recount to yourself your moments of inspiration, instances of pure joy, occasions of complete connections.

Is it possible to sustain those feelings? Absolutely. Come here often. It takes  awareness and more than a little doing to release the old outmoded belief structures that veil us from our Inner Source. 

Malabika

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_F7C_RDW-o8[/youtube]One of the problems we constantly face id managing our boundaries. People tend to intrude, crowd us, demand our attention and get in the way. This little exercise is intended to strengthen the boundaries when done consciously with mindfulness.

A client just stopped by for a cup of tea and to tell me how he is doing.

“Funny”, he said, “just some months ago I was so despondent, discouraged, dragging my heels, depressed. And now I can’t wait to get up in the morning and get going. There is life waiting for me out there loaded with gifts. All I have to do is reach out and pluck the fruits”, he said. “The only reason I don’t already have them I realize”, he added, “that I didn’t really want them that much, at least not with the same degree of clarity I have now. I was more comfortable being miserable. No matter how much I hated it, it was a space I knew.”

And what changed it? Drugs, medication, therapy?!? Nope, none of those, at least in this case. Just plain awareness. Opening up to the knowledge about oneself through self study, meditations and energy healing practices that help change the thought process. And suddenly life is so much brighter and so much more fun.

Is it possible? You bet. Can someone teach me? Yes, of course. Check it out at this link.

You are pure energy. You are the energy of the consciousness that is you — The Energy That Is You.  And as your consciousness shifts, expands, grows, so do you.

Welcome to my blog. We will talk about you, your energy, where it comes from, what enhances it, what depletes it, how it supports you and how you may integrate with it even more. Be prepared for a wonderful adventure through these pages.

In the meanwhile, I would love to invite you to ask your questions, send in your queries, express your curiousity of the world of energy. It is the next field of our evolution, would you agree?

More anon.

Malabika — your conscious energy guide.