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What if I really took complete responsibility and accepted that I am the chief architect in creating and holding in place everything that is going on in my life, good, bad or indifferent? What if I truly begin to believe that the state of my consciousness is the most powerful influence to change that? What if I also acknowledged that there are stuff (people, situations, conditions) in my life that fall in categories ranging from ‘oh-I-don’t-really-care-for-that’ going all the way down to ‘I-hate-that’ and ‘that-must-be-squashed-killed-driven-out-banished-from-my-life’? What if I took to heart that I purposely put those things there, so I could evolve on a fast track?

Would my life look different? Feel different? Something to ponder upon, really. I did.

I noticed that Johnny Doolittle with whom I have been really mad for what feels like a century, because he is sooooo negative, downright lazy and will of course never ever change, is now winking at me with the question dancing in the air ‘have you ever been lazy and negative? And have you forgiven yourself for it?’

And that job that I reluctantly drag myself to every Monday morning (gotta pay my bills, you know), the one that suffocates me with the deadlines, timelines, reviews and my monster boss breathing down my neck? Why did I put that there? My inner guide descends from some esoteric realm, stands leaning on the doorpost, cool as a cucumber and says, “Good question, kid. At last you are learning to ask the right ones. Now just wait for the answer.”

The answers are bitter pills to begin with. I never trusted my creative expression. Not for a moment did I let myself believe what I really love doing can and will pay my bills. I let someone else take the risk and the responsibility. I was willing to tag along, toe the line. Everyone needs a job, that’s what people do and so did I and worked hard for others. Become a slave to someone else’s creative organization. And now my spirit is suffocatiing and pleading me to get out. Deep breath.

That I am still here must mean I have yet to prepare myself to take that responsibility. My spirit is standing by, reminding me everyday that’s what I must do…….. that’s what I must do. Meanwhile I am so grateful to the folks I work for that they take the risk, they create a place where I can come and give my hours in exchange of my rent and other bills. One of these days, I have promised myself, I will be working at a place that I enjoy. I am getting ready.

And what about this relationship? What about this partner of mine who was going to make me happy on all counts, support and love me forever? Why do we keep getting into these unpleasant entanglements? Why am I still here? Why do I hang on to him, and he to me? It’s old habit, you say? No?

Old habit, may be, but when did I lose sight of love. I made him such a part of me that now I take him for granted every moment, as I do my hands and feet. My eyes and teeth. When he shovels the snow, paints the basement, replaces the window, fixes the furnace ….. oh of course he is suppoed to do that, isn’t he the guy? But why won’t he also do all this other stuff which really I would like to do but don’t have the guts, the conviction or the wherewithal to go and do by myself? Like learning to dance…….. I’d leave in a heartbeat but for the fact thet he pays half the mortgage and I don’t make that much money.

The truth I am trying to accept here is that I am solely responsible for creating this too. Aaaaargh!!!

And how would I change it if I lose sight of love? Isn’t that the juice? My inner guide is still leaning on doorpost snickering away, “You are getting it, kid, don’t stop now!!”

Hmmm. Through the eyes of love again then, I guess, it is time to see it all through the eyes of love. Nothing and no one can be take for granted any more. Not their job to make me feel better. No one else is responsible. So thank you, and you and you and you. Thank you today for who you are, what you do and what you add to my life.

Thank you also for what feels like you are taking away without equally returning the favor. Thanks for the reminder. That I am still here must only mean I am utterly blind to the compensation, because I have so taken it for granted. Energies must necessarily be in some degree of balance in order to let the situation exist.

Whew!!! The head spins. Awareness is the first step to making changes. I am. I will. It is set in motion. It is my life and I am the creator.

Malabika
Your Energy Guide

The world has so much life to offer, rich and abundant. How much of it have we trained ourselves to receive? This is the question that I have been asking myself (and my clients). Here is what comes up.

Giving and receiving are two sides of the same coin, right? You have heard that before. And really for the most part we have little trouble giving. We are happy to give our time, effort, love, service and even much more. But when it comes to receiving, something goes awry.

Commonly there is one big problem and that is we define who I will receive from. And this becomes hugely limiting because this operates both as the necessary and sufficient condition.

Here’s how it works. ‘Here, let me help you out you poor needy thing, who does not have much; I have so much compassion for you and your lot; here take from me, my endless source; I love it that I can give to you. What, you want to give me something back in return? No, no, no, please don’t. You need that more than I do.’

Now is there anyhting wrong with the giving? No of course not. Giving is generous, magnanimous and noble. It is the corresponding part that is out of balance — the refusal to receive. Think of a time when someone offered you something and you refused to receive it — a meal, money maybe, a gift, a lift, a compliment, an opportunity or something else. And instead of just saying thank you, you said something else. Ask yourself the question, what is your belief that stops you from receiving this from this person. You are sure to find a bunch of beliefs and perceptions bordering on ‘ your stuff is not good enough, it’s too little, too much, I don’t deserve it, or I deserve more, you can’t afford it, etc. etc. and so forth.’ These are the limiting beliefs that keeps you from absorbing life in greater doses. It also keeps you comparing and separate from source.

The second part of this problem is probably even worse. We think we are ready to receive life in great abundance but we have decided who and where that will come from. So we tether our boat to this anchor and refuse to let go. We then complain how my determined source is diminishing my life — is negative, does not do much, does not pay attention, does not …., is not…., cannot …., will not…… etc.” Meanwhile the river of life is going by in abundant flow and we are missing it all. There is enough out there, maybe not where I am looking to receive from.

Takes courage to let go and let God, doesn’t it? So the question remains, how much am I really ready to receive? How large is my container, how strong, how elastic, how flexible, how free and most of all how courageous?

And as always it comes from the heart connection. Enjoy receiving.

Malabika Shaw.
www.VisionWholistic.net
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Did you know that your soul energy is an uniquely individuated part of consciousness, that holds within it the highest potential? And did you know that the only purpose of the soul showing up as you in the human form here on earth is to learn to love even more? And did you know that with each lifetime of loving, the soul becomes more refined, moves to an expanded level of consciousness and is capable of creating magnificently?

The soul recognizes only the path of love. Everything that is unlike love is so irrelevant for the soul’s purpose that it expends minimal energy on it. Just as a plant needs to grow in its earth environment to reach a level of maturity to bear the fruit is was seeded to do, we too have to come to a stae of physical, mental and emotional maturity, before our souls can get to the real work. Meanwhile it sits around waiting, and watching, and smiling at our follies, and waiting some more, and whispering — love love love.

And every now and again when we feel completely relaxed and free from fear, the souls energy rushes in to guide us to the next idea, people, circumstances and resources for the next level of creation with love.

And we call it divine inspiration.

Wouldn’t it be wonderful to have the awareness to make that more of our everyday reality.
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“What is this Inner Being you keep referring to?” my friend asked.

A little ironic coming from a person whose entrepreneurial flair is legendary and as evident in the front line organizations he has initiated and built over the years.  This kind of zest, this intensity of focus, this level of creative endeavor would be elusive to anyone who is not intimately in touch with one’s own Inner Being.

Yet, the question has been asked, so I address it within the limitations of words.

In the vast ocean of consciousness, within which all creation is, which is that individuated part that shows up as YOU? You are a powerful vortex of the energy of consciousness, filtered through belief structures and anchored within this human body. Your mind and your emotions are gifts – tools for your creative purpose. And your Inner Being is that part of you which holds within it the full promise of your human potential just as a seed inherently holds the idea of the tree. And just as the seed matures to fruition in a healthy and conducive environment, so does the Inner Being.

Is this real, or a mere conceptual construct, you may ask? Conceptual no longer, most definitely real. More and more we are beginning to see the evidence of this space in the energy field, at a level of consciousness.

Unfortunately, not many of us can access this very valuable part of ourselves with the same ease and nonchalance as my friend does. Most of us have more of a ‘hit and miss’ relationship with our Inner Being – very tenuous one when we are stressed. So caught up are we in the world of survival and safety on the physical and psychological turfs, where do we have the time to nurture that seed to bear fruit?

Yet, it is this connection that gives meaning to our lives, puts passion in our efforts and beckons us to yet greater vistas. It brings with it excitement and growth. The Inner Being alone knows to savor the very juice life offers. Without it, we are roaming in a dry desert biding time.

If you are wondering how your Inner Being is faring, recount to yourself your moments of inspiration, instances of pure joy, occasions of complete connections.

Is it possible to sustain those feelings? Absolutely. Come here often. It takes  awareness and more than a little doing to release the old outmoded belief structures that veil us from our Inner Source. 

Malabika

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_F7C_RDW-o8[/youtube]One of the problems we constantly face id managing our boundaries. People tend to intrude, crowd us, demand our attention and get in the way. This little exercise is intended to strengthen the boundaries when done consciously with mindfulness.

While we get ready to give thanks for everything that is wonderful, India is struggling with barbaric terrorist attacks at many locations in its financial capital, Mumbai. Over a 100 innocent lives have been lost, many others are held hostage and the saga continues as I write this post. The end is not yet in sight.

What is this madness all about? Some have asked. Others on many social network have condemned the attackers in no uncertain terms. But you can tell there is a sense of impotency to be able to do anything that would change it.

Who but those who feel so utterly powerless and angry would resort to this? Who else would have such little regard to God’s gift of life? Their own lives must be so joyless that they think nothing of sacrificing it while taking a few others along. So lost they are in their conviction that some wrong is being righted here by these means .

What would love do now?

It is a baffling question. Should I condemn the violence? That is one thing. Do I also condemn the people behind it? Will I not then be perpetueating their powerlessness? What about the people who lost their lives? Don’t their families deserve some retribution?

I don’t know. These are moral dilemmas not easy to answer. All I know is that in engaging with this madness, I give it more power. How can I disengage when the energy of anger comes at me so strongly? It is the answer that I too, among others, am seeking.

Malabika

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